I've always been conscious, writing this blog, how strange I am, compared to other people. It's not the first time this has happened to me. Much of my life, I've not fit in. Not when I was a seven year old in third grade. Not when life seemed deadly serious to me, even in elementary school, as other kids played dodgeball and watched the Flintstones. Not when I wanted to work instead of going to high school football games. Not when I started college at 16. And not now.
of you have read this blog since the beginning, and you've watched as
I've learned and changed over the last year or so--the culmination of
years of change that have led me to where I am today. The difference
now, compared to ten years ago is that I know me. I know who I am,
where I fit, what I'm good at, and who really loves me, and so now I
don't need to be anyone but the person that I am.
at the risk of turning this blog from one that gets read sparingly to
one that gets read not at all, today, I'm "going there."
was the 11th anniversary of 9/11. I will confess that at the time of
the attacks, I was an emotional basket case. I felt instantly the
changing of the world. I'd already witnessed, through TV news, the
Oklahoma City Bombing, Waco, Columbine. But somehow that morning, 9/11,
something was very different. I knew that morning that nothing would
ever be the same.
Shortly after that day, I had an
intuition, I guess, because while the narrative was all over--the Arab
hijackers, the hatred they had for America, the reaction of the world--I
wrote an essay. It was about justice and mercy, and while it's long
since gone, the victim of old computers and poor labeling of diskettes,
it was basically a call for people to remember that what seems like
justice depends upon the perspective where you stand, and that when we
do something wrong, we'd like to receive mercy a lot more than justice,
so maybe we should give that in this case too. I read the essay as the
message at my church at the time, at the invitation of our pastor. I
guess I had a feeling that there was more to it than the common 'wisdom"
at the time. Maybe he did too.
Now more than a decade
later, we're still killing people based on the excuse of 20 Arab
hijackers driving planes into buildings. Hundreds of thousands of
people--men, women and children. Millions displaced by war. Our
country's finances in tatters from years of war spending and government
contracts to Blackwater and others of their ilk. Thousands of people
indefinitely detained. Some tortured. Some killed. And in certain
quarters, the bloodlust is no less vicious today than it was 11 years
ago. It is as if America is performing an experiment to see how long
normal people will continue killing in vengeance for past events.
then yesterday, on the anniversary of 9/11, there was the killing of
our ambassador in Libya, Chris Stevens, and several other people. At
first report, it was said to be the work of Muslim "protesters" of an
anti-Muslim film put out by an Israeli real estate developer to
discredit the Muslim faith. People began to comment on news sites in
the same old, hate-filled ways. Politicians wasted no time to point
fingers and criticize.
Then, as the day has worn on
today, the story has gotten curiouser and curiouser. The guy who made
the anti-Muslim movie isn't who it was said he was. His name is a
pseudonym; he isn't an Israeli as first reported. Maybe he's a
"right-wing extremist." He might not even exist.
attack on the Libyan embassy probably wasn't even a protest of the
movie. It probably used the protest of the movie in Egypt as a
diversion to carry out an intentional attack on the ambassador and his
staff. The FBI is investigating. Today, again, I feel as if things
changed and will never be the same. I have the feeling that there is
very much more to this story than meets the eye, or the news report, and
I'm betting that in the days and weeks to come, we're going to learn a
lot that we don't really want to hear.
So here's why
I'm writing this, and why I started out with a disclosure of my lifelong
weirdness. I'm as certain as I can be, without having been there in
person, that we've been led down this blood-soaked path by lies,
manipulations, and deceptions. And I'm not afraid to say so anymore.
In my opinion after review of much information:
The American government knowingly permitted the attacks of 9/11/2001 to occur
has then systematically disposed of evidence, failed to investigate
important information, and tried to intimidate or discredit anyone who's
gotten any traction toward exposing their crimes.
specifically? I don't know--we have no way of telling what's true and
what's not in so-called news reporting. I only know it wasn't twenty
Muslim extremists inspired by AlQaeda. Why did they do it? Well,
judging from the results for the last decade--to pave the way for wars
in Iraq, Afghanistan, and elsewhere in the middle east, and to provide
cover for the erosion of civil rights and Constitutional protections
here in our country. What has it gained? Well, puppet governments in a
couple of those places, one complete with its own connection to illegal
drug trafficking, and a population who is so desensitized to abuse that
it no longer seems to care if toddlers and elderly incontinent people
get their diapers searched just to get on an airplane. File in, get
probed, file out. Stupid, docile, sheep.
don't buy everything that "truthers" say, but here's the thing--there's
stuff about 9/11 and the official story about it that makes no sense. And in all my experience in law, one thing I learned was: if it doesn't make sense, it isn't true.
Why did the government haul away all the debris at ground zero without investigators combing through it for evidence?
didn't NIST test for explosives, when many witnesses and a couple of
videos agree that there were multiple explosions in the lower areas of
the towers--in the case of the second tower, before the plane even hit
Why did a third building, WTC7,
collapse, in very much the same manner as the twin towers (straight
down, very quickly), later the same day, when it was never hit by a
plane? And why didn't we hear much about it?
the government give three different time lines and stories about when
fighters were "scrambled" to defend against the attack?
when not a single one of the hijackers was Iraqi, or Afghani, we wound
up attacking those countries, but never Saudi Arabia, where the
hijackers were supposedly from?
And you know, the only
people who are asking ANY questions about what happened that day, and
why, are the truthers. So I'm going with them, even if I have to
upgrade my tinfoil hat.
If you're interested, or maybe
just curious, a documentary by Richard Gage, of Architects and
Engineers for 9/11 Truth has recently been broadcast by a public tv
station in my old hometown, Denver. It's streaming
online now and indefinitely, for free. It's a reasonable, and pretty
short, summary of why people have questions about 9/11--why people like
me are pretty sure that what they've told us about that day isn't true.
And why so many people want so badly to avoid reaching that conclusion.
for the rest, I'm going to wait and see what next emerges about the
curious story of how an American diplomat died yesterday, and nearly,
but not quite, fired up all the anti-Muslim hatred all over again. I'm
pretty sure that whatever happened is important.
the meantime, I'm going to face the fact that maybe I'm still odd, after
all these years. Or maybe I'm just tired of getting played like a